Friday, November 21, 2008
-I-R-O-N-I-C- lol. It's funny how moods can totally change and differentiate in the matter of about 12 hours. How many times has this happened to you? Where you've felt like you did the right thing, to only have the opposite, like in my case, happen? I had quite a aggravating day, I acutally told JJ to just shoot me after the egg incident, haha. He knows all about it. But now, I've been off work for almost 2 hours and I laugh at what happened today. There were a lot of jokes with my mistakes and it made others laugh, but now I laugh upon the day too. It was so stressful at the time i had a bad bad headache, but its nice to kick back and relax now and look at how humerous it really was.
have you experienced days like that lately? How'd you manage to get through the stress of what was going on to be able to do away with that?
Song of the day!
I don't care by Apocalyptica
Thursday, November 20, 2008
And for other news: Shedding of the shell.
Something I've begun to do. I typically am the person to just sit back, keep emotions/feelings to myself. But, in one case i realized that HAD to change. I had to get out something to an old friend. It was one of the hardest things I typed, and it was even harder to click the "send message" button. But I did it. No turning back. I had put it off for days. I shall not go into details other than what I've just said. But I felt a relief of finally after a long time getting something out to someone. It felt good. Now just gotta "see where the road leads" :-)
lol. I'm pretty sure that's all I got to say for tonight. I made a record for me with 3 blogs in 1 month I think! Haha. And as my new tradition I will leave you with some songs that I'm currently digging. So check them out, if you wish.
To all have a splendid night and a great day tomorrow! As I shall try as I continue on my path down my newly discovered road. I am starting to see pavement as the dirt covering my path fades away..
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Your Guardian Angel
Your Guardian Angel Lyrics-
Limp Bizkit- Behind Blue Eyes
Behind Blue Eyes Lyrics-
Anberlin- The Promise ----Top Song of the Day. Takes Words from my Lips.----
The Promise Lyrics-
And one last thing. Please watch this video. It gave me chills the first time I saw it. It's made me think about the way I drive. Seriously, you never know. And also if you do watch it, it has "Your Guardian Angel" as the song in backround, so you won't need to go to youtube for that one. But I recommend watching this video about a car crash of a SRT-4 Dodge Neon. Seriously. It may make ya think twice about just how crazy you drive.
SRT-4 Dodge Neon Crash. When Tragedy Strikes Unexpectedly during a little bit of "Driving Fun".
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Has brought you to your knees.You're waiting at the starting line, What if the gun is empty?"
I don't know why that stood out so much to me. I really like those last two lines. What if the gun is empty and your at the starting line?
You will just never get going then and will be stuck there forever. You gotta take it upon yourself to run and reach forward on your own.
That's all I have to share today.
I would like your thoughts on your interpretation of that quote from the song.
What do you think it means?????
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
This has been far, far over do right Taylor? No more bugging me to update my blog, ha-ha... I think it's been since August when I said so much on my mind and I never said any more about that. I sit here in the library at SPC [St. Pete College for those who lack that intelligence of knowing the greatest college ever]. I have time to waste in between classes every Tuesday and Thursday. And today as I have my itunes on, a song by Lifehouse called "Storm" which I recommend checking out.
In my short 20 years and 5ish months of breathing air, I have been through more than I would've thought. There's been the ups and downs, the happy and sad times. The good the bad. A lot of kids growing up cannot wait until the day they turn 18. They think that is when their "good" life begins. I was one of those kids. I couldn't wait until June 19th, 2006 when I turned 18. Boy do I regret that. I wasn't in a hurry to be 18 to purchase cigarettes, because I do not smoke. I wasn't in a hurry to purchase lotto tickets, because I am just not into that [although an occasional ticket I do purchase or a scratch off. What's a dollar or two here or there?]. I wasn't in a hurry to turn 18 to go "clubbing", because that is just not my style. I still haven't been to a club yet. As I look back today I wonder what was it that made me want to grow up so fast. Turning 18, and 19, and 20 as I did this year hasn't been so amazing as I expected. Turning 18 brought: a job, job stress, credit card bills, cell phone bills, gas bills, college, college stress, college expenses,and much more expenses. Granted growing up is not bad at all. But the one thing about growing older that I should be experiencing most of is as I grow older and gain knowledge my walk in Christ and relationship with God should increase. That is the bright side of growing up. But for me, I have not led that part of my life out. I have had my moments where I've walked side-by-side with Christ. Where all I wanted to do was grow in Him. Then I would fall away and slowly come back only to fall again. I can say now I am at one of the points where I am at the ground level, you can say I am below sea level trying to find a way to be up above it again. I've become comfortable with my life. I work full-time. I go to college full-time. I fit friends in when I can. Church has faded to the back of my mind. I lost interest in going on Sunday's because of working so late on Saturdays and needing rest, especially when I would be working again on Sunday. I just want to live a good life, have fun, and be succesful. And I've been texting with a close friend today, cause her and I struggle with a lot of the same stuff which makes us really good friends I would think. I love getting to talk to her because it's like a vent time. To encourage one another. I've been giving advice today that I need to give myself. I need to take my own advice. With the work and school aspect of my life; I have not a clue what I want to do with my career. Right now Publix is #1 choice to stick it out and get into management. It's got more positive things in doing that than bad. But as I gave in the advice, it can't be about the money we'd like to make, for no matter our income if we stick next to God and keep our faith then He will provide us with all we need. Having him in our heart is worth more than any amount of money you can make in a job. I apologize for going off on tangents in this blog but there is a lot I want to get out and if it comes through my head, I'm going to go that way. Oh, and Lifehouse is the best band ever I am coming to see. So many amazing songs. I'm hooked. "Broken", "Everything", "Storm", I can put into my life in my own interpretatoin of the songs. Anyway. Earlier this year I was beginning to grow. I was doing devos every day. I was getting life on track. Then bam! Brick wall. Knocked out. And I've not come out since. I haven't looked at a devo book that I have in many,many months. I've fallen apart. It might now always appear that way on the outside, but if you could see inside me I am one broken man. Hmmm. I had to walk from the library to my class to be able to continue this since my class started at 4 and I lost my train of thought. This Western Humanities teacher is crazy and gets me off track. But anyway.
Have you ever run across these struggles? Not knowing what path to take in life? I sure have. And I am currently seeking out the right direction to take. I know it says in scripture "I can do all things through Christ who Strenghtens me" but it's hard to stick to that sometimes. When work, school, friends, family, life all together stresses you it makes you feel like giving up. Calling in sick. Skipping that class. Not responding to that text. Locking yourself in your room. I know that feeling all to well. I just don't know enough scripture to try and help give me encouragement to get through stress and struggles. So if you know some good verses, or shoot, even good BOOKS to read, comment me them. I'll be interested.
I need to step up on P-game [Prayer game]. that may help my focus help clear up. God's path might just shine through. But until then I shall keep going to SPC [for now] and work on getting promoted into management at Publix as Grocery Team Leader.
Maybe it won't be so many months that I update now, but with full-time work and school, what better way to relax than to type up a blog. Challenge you. Challenge me. Throw ideas out there.
My challenge this post is: I want you to challenge me to step up. Hold me accountable. I might not make it to church every week, I still need to keep my life together at home,work and school.
So that is that. This is this. I am out of here. I think I should pay a little bit of attention in class at least, right? ...............nahhhhhh whats the point? ;-)
You know I just realized I have typed all this and did not mention 1 thing about the election? dang. Shows the election isn't too strongly on my mind, even though it should be. I will not be voting this election, as I don't want to rush to vote for someone who I don't know much about either. I know in my mind who I would vote for from the info I know, and I like the vice president running to, she seems good. Your typical person, like one of us. I like her. and him. yeah..... hehe. But anyway. It is a big day in history. It really is a big election not just for who is taking over but also we will have the first African-American president, or the first female vice president. Either way, history is in the making. It really is too close to call. no one is blowing away the other. It will be interesting to see who pulls it out tonight. All this anticipation leading up to tonight is crazy.
Obama vs McCain. who will be on top? Only God knows the paths their life will take. Just like only He knows my path.
OH. listen to these songs. Maybe I'll put 5 top songs I recommend to listen to?
Lifehouse-Everything[Here is the awesome skit]
Lifehouse- Everything[normal music video]
Framing Hanley- Hear Me Now
Mat Kearney- Tomorrow
That will conclude this over long blog. Oh man I didn't even mention the Rays either. Maybe text time. I am about to bounce out of class. Have a good election day.
I bid you farewell.